Taking a few minutes tonight outside . . . a few quiet minutes before the work begins.
Trying to find some peace in the chaos that has been life this summer.
Between the children, the job, and the husbands travel schedule, I haven't spent a lot of time out here. And tonight is perfect. The perfect temperature. The perfect sunset. The perfect bird sounds. Perfect.
Last week was a rough one. Like, really rough. Like, I was ready to throw the towel in. All of them. Haven't felt that way in a long long time. But last week, I felt it. Every single day.
Tonight, I am taking deep breaths. I am reminding myself of my blessings (of which there are many). I am forgiving myself. I am loving myself. I am telling myself that hard times will always come, and will always pass . . . I am reminding myself of my dreams, of my passions, of my abilities. One of my biggest fears in going back to healthcare, is losing sight of who I am inside. Lately, I feel so overwhelmed - pulled into so many directions. Under appreciated. All of it.
Tonight, I am trying to find me again.
And with that, the quiet is gone. Phil has joined me out here - playing videos and music on his iPad. The girls have brought bubbles outside and are starting to annoy each other already, the neighbors party is getting louder next door, and the sun is going down.
Tomorrow is another day.
Maybe I can find myself then.
Wishing you peace, my friend.